Remembering Timothy White Eagle

My reaction to meeting Timothy White Eagle for the first time was probably similar to that of every person who ever met him: awestruck. For me, it was an evening in 2016 on the Bellevue Arts Museum plaza, where, amid a swarm of mere mortals, I was introduced to White Eagle: barrel-chested and statuesque, with long locks falling halfway down his back. The warmth of his smile was matched by the warmth of his words. 

The last time I saw him was at the end of July; we had both been invited to speak on a panel at the Seattle Art Fair, discussing why artists stay in this city. By then, his physical size had diminished, yet his presence was as large as ever. He brought everyone caramel chocolates and made us laugh with his tough love and wisdom wrapped in jokes. He always was a bit of a class clown. People like White Eagle are why we stay. 

White Eagle was born in 1966 to a woman of Mohave descent, from the Colorado River Indian Tribes. At three days old, he was adopted into a white Mormon family in Montesano, Washington, where, in the ’80s, he stood out. Not only was he one of the only children of color at his school (he took eighth grade algebra with Kurt Cobain), he was one of the only Mormons, and he was gay. “I was a big screaming queen trying not to be screaming,” White Eagle told me in an interview in March of this year. “But yeah, I was pretty much not like the other boys.”

White Eagle spoke with regard for his adoptive father, who raised him and his siblings as a single parent when White Eagle was a teenager. “My dad was a bit of an iconoclast,” White Eagle said. “He was a Mormon, but he also had a very strong independent streak. He had an idea that God understood him. Even if he wasn’t doing things right according to Mormonism—having a beer with the loggers in town or not tithing so he could pay off his house—he just knew that God gets who I am, and it’s okay. I think that that was an early way of laying into me that we all can have a unique relationship to spirit, and what’s important is our relationship, not the dogma of some authoritarian channel through which you receive a connection to the divine. I think that was an early, little key to why I went where I went, which is very nontraditional.”

White Eagle graduated with a BFA in theater stage management from the University of Utah in 1990. After graduating, he moved to Seattle to take a job at Seattle Rep, which had invited him to an internship. The offer was retracted when the organization realized he had not yet completed the required masters degree. He stayed in Seattle and went on to work at low-budget shows in black box theaters and at restaurants, saving money to open his own coffee shop cabaret space. The death of a relative in 1995 provided him enough cash to open Coffee Messiah during Pride month of that year. 

It was Ursula Android—drag persona of artist and Pony founder Marcus Wilson—who suggested the Cabaret of Despair. “Ursula was sitting in the coffee shop reading Isherwood’s The Berlin Stories,” White Eagle recalled. “He put the book down and said, ‘Would you let me do a cabaret in here?’”

The result was a drag cabaret and open mic night that ran most nights from 2 a.m. till dawn and featured artists like Sylvia O’Stayformore, Ursula Android, and Jackie Hell. “I used to call us a home for freaks,” White Eagle said. “The vibe was very anything is welcome. Risk is encouraged. Get messy. Have fun. Do whatever you want, just clean up when you’re done.”

During his 20s, White Eagle also discovered the radical faeries of the Wolf Creek Radical Faerie Sanctuary in Southern Oregon. He quickly took up planning rituals at their gatherings. “That was my happy spot,” he said. “It became the place where I got to do a lot of experimenting and learning about traditional pagan ritual structure, how to hold space for a community, how to state intention, and how to make public prayer.”

It was at Wolf Creek that White Eagle met Clyde Hall, a Shoshone elder who took him under his wing. At that point, Coffee Messiah became financially unfeasible—he sold the cafe in 2000 and took up odd jobs, like cleaning houses, so he could travel. “A normal pursuit would have been to go to New York to follow the kind of performance art I loved,” he said. “But I had such a hunger to understand Native culture, so I just started traveling with [Hall], and that kind of took over my life for more than 10 years.” 

Most of his Indigenous training took place with Shoshone and Piute elders, unrelated to his ancestral tribe. It was only a few years ago, through DNA testing, that White Eagle was able to trace the identity of his birth mother and his true Native heritage. The attorney who handled his adoption had mistakenly recalled his mother as White Mountain Apache; she was Mohave, from the Colorado River Indian Tribes. When, in his 50s, he finally identified and contacted his birth mother, he respected her wish to remain distant. “I feel strongly that I need to protect her privacy and not invade her elderly years with something she moved on from,” he said. 

That’s the kind of grace White Eagle extended to the entire world around him and infused into his work. The performances that emerged in his 40s combined experiences from his life, including his ongoing training in pagan ritual and Native ceremony, with the religious liturgy he grew up with in the Mormon church. His first major solo performance, The White Room, created in 2016, was an immersive installation that fused performance and public space. It referenced the Celestial Room in the Mormon Temple—a sacred space.  

“You have to be a tithe-paying, good Mormon in good standing [to enter],” White Eagle said. “A queer Native American doesn’t qualify. I wanted to make a space that was the opposite of that. The White Room was created as a temporary autonomous zone, a place where there were no rules, a place to see and surrender the layers of miseducation. We all come into this world a blank slate, and then the world starts telling us what’s wrong with us and how we have to be different and how we have to be some other way.”

The White Room ran for nine months, and saw over 160 participants.

White Eagle’s performances have been presented at On the Boards (Indian School, 2024, and Revival, 2022) and Town Hall Seattle (The Dead House, 2021). The Indigo Room was presented at the University of Utah, Texas A&M, and La MaMa and the Public Theater’s Under the Radar Festival in New York (2023–2024). He toured internationally with Taylor Mac, as a cast member in Holiday Sauce (2019) and as a consultant, performer, and artistic director for A 24-Decade History of American Popular Music in 2016. His visual art, including installations and photographic collaborations with Adrain Chesser and Steven Miller, has been exhibited extensively, both locally and globally. Among numerous other residencies, in 2025 he was named the inaugural Duwamish Watershed Artist-in-Residence.

White Eagle was three months into the yearlong residency when doctors discovered stage one pancreatic cancer, in September of last year. Though White Eagle was hesitant to emphasize such a facile parallel between the toxicity of the Duwamish River and his own fight for health, the diagnosis and treatment transformed his residency. What began as a largely solitary experience in collaboration with Chesser expanded to include works by artists Laura Wright, Epiphany Couch, Crystal Cortez, and Sarah Kavage. His own work focused on creating and performing rituals for healing, both in private and public, and creating medicine objects through photography and materials gathered throughout the watershed. 

White Eagle passed away on Tuesday, September 8. He was 60. A grief gathering is being planned for the evening of Thursday, September 17 in the Great Hall at Town Hall, on what would have been the closing performance of Timothy White Eagle Has No Shame. He leaves behind a community of colleagues, collaborators, friends, and family who mourn and cherish his memory. Here are some of their words:

“White Eagle, and his then-partner Adrain Chesser, adopted me into their lives around 2006. Their world of radical faeries and rituals and wild parties changed my life forever. Together, the three of us collaborated, merging our worlds together to make Beaster and Bear, a series of portraits and tableaus about mystical queers in Renaissance settings. White Eagle built the sets, and he would always come up with the most amazing finds from the Goodwill bins or his own hoard of long, flowing fabrics. 

In the last year, after his diagnosis, we shared many tender moments, because I’ve had my own cancer struggles. After the opening of his show at Mini Mart City Park, we spoke about the fucked-up gifts that cancer gives you: recognizing the beauty of small things, and how much we really have in community. 

I am so sad at White Eagle’s untimely passing—we had more work to do together, and more adventures to create. The world needs more wild, open, loud, and beautiful people to express their authentic, raw selves. Long live White Eagle.”
–Steven Miller, artistic collaborator and friend

“We were lucky at On the Boards to be a creative home for Timothy. He was a board member, an artist in residence, an experimental performer, and a friend. I include myself when I say that Timothy’s art and presence changed many of us for the better. Timothy had a big part to play in my move to Seattle and working for OtB. During the recruitment process I asked to meet with artists in the community. The board sent me off to coffee with Timothy at KEXP. I was immediately struck by the sheer artistic force and presence of him. I remember being impressed by his ability to hold his love for OtB with the determination that it must be and do better for Seattle. I was moved. It lit a fire in me to share in that dream with him.” 
–Megan Kiskaddon, executive director at On the Boards

“Timothy White Eagle is a friend, a brother, and a guide who taught me to pray so that ‘the lessons be memorable and gentle.’ We first met at a Radical Faerie gathering in Southern Oregon as he told wild stories around a fire pit. Later he and I bonded in Santa Fe New Mexico as we both studied with our mentor and friend Guillermo Gómez-Peña and the wild performance art troupe La Pocha Nostra. He challenged me to accept the urgency of an artist’s impulse and make what was required for the moment—even imperfectly. It has been an honor being on his production and business team for the last five years.”
–Pepper Pepper, artist, friend, and admin and producer of Timothy White Eagle: Once Wild River

“I’m not sure what to say, words fail me. For now, I’m just incredibly sad and angry that we won’t get to witness him as an 80-year-old artist.”
–Adrain Chesser, artistic collaborator and partner

“Timothy drew the best people to him, then gifted them to each other to do work worthy of their highest calling that exceeded the excellence they could ever achieve on their own, and these are his most exquisite, profound, and lasting compositional legacies. He was our center pole and I found myself in the profound position of helping him stay upright and on track to do his bravest and best ritual theater work. We were soulmates on many levels, the queerest of weird, misunderstood, spiritually and artistically powerful children raised by people and religions that only know how to control and damage such spirits. And we both survived. We are also an artistic dream team and made the best work of our lives together, maximalists who are intuitively driven by hearts so purely set on bringing healing and transformation to audiences. We are both well-tethered to a concern with what work DOES in muscular, loving, ambitious ways, for our audiences, but also for us. He was at his best when he was pursuing his own emergent healing needs first and knew that would ripple out. It was my profound gift to learn how to do this work with him and I will forever be sifting through all the richness our time together has given to me. I already miss him so much, but we transformed each other. I will never take a deep breath or pray or approach creating work for an audience without feeling him cheering me on, having my back, and seeing the fingerprints of his beautiful hands all over the place.”
–Hatlo, artistic collaborator and platonic soulmate 

“I guess I would just like to say how much I enjoyed collaborating with Timothy on the beyond debaucherous extreme late-night happening ‘The Cabaret of Despair’ at Coffee Messiah in 1998/99. Also, I will always cherish the time we made plans to go out one night, but he wouldn’t tell me where we were going, just told me to look good. 

So I got dressed in full drag as Ursula Android, and Timothy came and picked me up in his car, we got on the freeway, and then he handed me a pill box full of microdots of acid. We took some and the next thing I knew we were parking near Tacoma Dome. Someone had given Timothy tickets to the Spice Girls concert, and that’s where he took me, tripping my pumps off.”
–Marcus Wilson, friend and Cabaret of Despair co-conspirator 

“I had the honor of knowing Timothy Turner White Eagle for over 30 years and witnessed his ripening creative power, his softening compassion, his profound capacity for ceremonial leadership, and, most of all, his willingness to be conscious of his wholeness. He was a maximalist that loved the light and dark, vulnerability and power, the high and the low. A mythically brilliant mind, he was devoted to creating works that would surprise a community into a state of playful transformation. In his last days of being able to speak, most of his energy was spent talking about art. He turned the hospital into an absurd trickster theater capturing the hearts of medical staff, as well as friends and family. Creativity blazed in glorious intensity within him. I am inspired by his raw want to connect through spirit and art and I hear his echo in everything, encouraging us all to not waste a sip of this life! Go for it… Let it all in and give everything in return!”
–Rebecca Farr, artist and friend

“From the moment I met Timothy White Eagle, some 25 years ago, I loved that queen—because it’s hard not to love someone who’s got a great big heart. Timothy had a gift of connecting with people who are often overlooked and undervalued, and helping them see they were beautiful and loved. Seeing his artistic career blossom these past years, it was a great reminder to never be ashamed of how fabulous you are.”
–Rosette Royale, journalist, storyteller, and friend

“It’s not possible to express all that I could say about him & the way he helped me shape my life these last 25 years. Our friendship was long & messy & juicy & big, & so is he. He was authentic to his core & it came out in his theater, his art, his leadership, his magic, & in every beautiful & stupid & stupidly beautiful choice he made. I guess more than anything else I want to say: I will be unpacking the gifts he gave me for the rest of his life. Sometimes I will surely wish he’d saved the receipts so I could return one or two of them, but here we are. I love him.”
–Ampersand Charmpoo

“He had the most uncanny ability to create ritual space. He could turn a common room into a temple, and simple fire into a cauldron of transformation, a photograph into a prayer for change, and a holiday party into a devotional for Dionysus. I watched him shift from a recovering Mormon kinky gay man into a Mohave Ceremonialist. He embodied what I understand as a true human being. He would be equally reverent and silly. As strong as he was, he could be equally as vulnerable. With our longevity of friendship, we would talk of where we came from and appreciate how far we have come. I will deeply miss his mirroring, mischievous grin, and love. 

I could tell stories about his Cabaret of Despair at the Coffee Messiah in the early ’90s, doing whippets in the bathroom before grabbing the mic spouting stream of consciousness no one could track.  Or fires invoking faerie ancestors who died from AIDS to partake in sexy activities of Beltane. Standing in a field of native edible roots praying to the root diggers that took care of this land and always planted back more than they took. So many found solace in his home, a place to stay, a job cleaning houses, a purpose, and a calling.”
–Jaime Barber

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